I am not much of a writer, but I am definitely a thinker. I am somewhat of an introvert and I certainly never thought I would blog, but I have so many questions about the world, religion, people, ideas, violence, and love. I both hope that my blog is discovered and that it is anonymous. Contradiction which is only available in the human psyche. I know people all over the world and I see we have more in common than not. More of our feelings, hopes, ideals are similar than our separating fears would indicate. I hope this blog allows me an opportunity to send out my thoughts, perhaps meet new people and new ideas.
I feel inadequate to pose questions of similarity and oneness in that I currently only speak and write English. It is a failing on my part. Twenty years ago I spoke German, Spanish and English but did not have opportunities to practice anything but English and as a result did not retain much of the other. My father spoke Hungarian and I wish he had taught us. My mother spoke Latin when she wanted to talk over us, but she also spoke to us in English, Spanish and signed to us. My eldest brother speaks several languages and I am jealous of him. So please forgive me if you find my postings only in English, I am not one of the linguistically gifted.
I have a varied educational background. I dropped out of high school to attend college. I had gotten bored in high school and would have failed if I stayed. In college I was like a ravenous dog, taking in every bit of information with abandon. I settled on five majors: Cultural Anthropology, Art History, Animal Behavior, Equine Science and Studio Art. I obtained a Masters degree in Secondary Education and did my thesis research on creativity and the brain. I am consistently interested in neuroscience, behavioralism, politics, religion and culture.
I am personally a deist. I have a very strong belief in a creator, but no faith in religion. I see that religion has the ability to control the masses and therefore is capable of great good but also great harm. I pray and meditate daily. I have a morning ritual of clearing my mind and being at peace before leaving my bed. I know that I am blessed and I constantly foster an attitude of appreciation for all that is in my life.
I have loved deeply, unconditionally, passionately and lost. I have been loved. I have had love for someone who did not return it to me in the same package as I gave it to them. I have had love given to me freely that I could not reciprocate. I am currently in love with someone who is very far away and I often do not hear from him. Many days I do not know if he is safe, if he has experienced any peace or kindness, if he has felt warmth. It is an odd way to have a relationship. We have been apart for eighteen months and out of consistent communication the last four. Our relationship feels the brunt of world politics.
I have children. They are good people, strong in their character, willing to help others, intelligent, of good humor. I am blessed. They want to make a difference with their lives. I hope we all can.
It is from this perspective of my life experience that I will pose my questions, preview my thoughts and share my experiences. I hope we enjoy getting to know one another.
Sincerely,
Nanette
